when you belong to a song, salty eyes, you belong.

i'm listening to the matches on shuffle and staring at my media law homework. i have two more questions left but one question has five parts, each of which has at least two parts, so you do the math as to how much i have left.

basically, i can't focus. you think the motivation of getting everything done before tuesday would be enough drive and focus to get it done, but, alas, i've been sitting at my computer for four hours (?) doing nothing but browsing websites and imdb'ing random people. i wasted almost all day yesterday too with my mother watching movie after movie and getting half of the homework done, so that sucks. i need to turn my internet off or something, but i don't think that'll get me anywhere. i can just as easily turn it back on.

all this procrastination makes me want to leave school that much faster. i just want a job and to move out permanently and pay my own bills and deal with everything by myself. i realized that i don't have much fun anymore--little to no fun, really--and it's because i'm so stressed and i have few real friends. i hardly eat, sleep a lot and don't enjoy anything i do. i'd like to change this, but i don't know how.

hopefully i can start next semester with a new outlook on life and start exercising and eating better. i always try this approach though and i end up eating sandwiches three weeks in.

anyway, i better get back to trying to focus. sorry for the complete randomness of this post. i just needed to vent. i need to cut my nails.